A New Perspective

So the last few weeks have given me more perspective and wisdom than I ever thought was possible in such a short amount of time. First of all, I am now fully aware of just how tough I am! I guess in certain situations I am fairly confident, but as a whole I have always struggled with confidence in myself. I am most certainly a "comfort zone" person and am happy sticking with what I know. However, due to life's unpredictability I was forced to fully own the last few weeks on my life and am happy to say I've faired SO much better than I ever thought possible.

Secondly, I now know I am a good mom! That probably sounds silly to say or maybe even a little vain but as I previously stated confidence in myself is pretty hard to come by and the fact that I want everything to be "just the way it should be", or at least the way it should be in my own mind, I am often VERY hard on myself and even overly critical of my abilities. However, Heavenly Father has a way of humbling me and causing me see myself through his eyes and this has definitely been the case as I've relied more fully on him in my times of need.

And thirdly, I am MUCH more aware of the blessings in my lifet! Humility sure is an eye opener! But it's only when we're forced to step outside of our comfort zone and when we are pushed to our limits that we finally see what our potential is and the bigger picture that's in store for us when we push through :) I am SO unbelievably grateful for my husband and everything he is and does for me!!! So often we take the people most important to us for granted and I think this was my wake up call to see my husband for what he is... my literal other half! I am SO grateful for an amazingly smart, funny and purely compassionate little daughter of mine! She brings me joy that transcends the ability to comprehend it! And I'm SO very grateful for my family and friends who buoy me up, lend support and give me the encouragement I need to keep improving upon myself!

The Sweetest Things in Life....

Sometimes the sweetest things in life are the simplest.  This evening I started to archive old family video from VHS and 8MM of my family and Carrie's family.  I must say it is just awesome to have such memories.  My parents; nor did any of my extended family members have a VHS Camcorder until later in life.  My uncle Dredo was the first to purchase one in our family and he used it very well.  He captured some memories that if I didn't have I wouldn't be able to share them with my family.  My father in law Danny AKA dad is also another brilliant man who invested in his family wisely and captured those family memories.  A shout out to my dad for buying one of the top of the line Olympus SLR's back in the day the OM2 and he took some awesome photos of mom, myself, and my brother growing up.  Also dad later bought a SONY HandyCam that he used to capture some moments with my grandfather and grandmother in Guyana that we would have never had if it wasn't for him.

I just want to say these guys are my heroes.  They really have motivated me to continue capturing those precious moments and archive them away for our children.  Don't feel silly to pull out a camera and take some video or snap a photo or two; because as the years go by, and they go by fast; you won't regret it.

Sweet Little Blessing...

So I have not blogged in forever...literally, but with a brand new year and a fresh new outlook on life it just feels right to start again! :)

There is so much new going on in the Armogan household, as of recent, that is wonderful and exciting! Ravi and I have kicked our weight-loss goal into high gear. It's been roughly 2 or 3 months of reducing portions, more fruits & veggie, no sugary drinks and getting my booty moving and I couldn't be happier :) My awesome hubby has lost way more than I have, by far, but he is my complete inspiration, motivation and the one that holds me accountable when I'm sorely tempted by sweet cravings late in the night...oh those terrible cravings :( LOL!

And on an even happier note, Ravi and I are looking forward to expanding our family this year. When? Well, sooner than later is what we're hoping for! Chandani is the most ready child I have ever seen for a little sibling :) She talks about a "baby seester" (sister) non-stop. She puts away her toys and clothes in little bags and says "This is for my seester, Momma!" and smiles from ear to ear whenever she talks about her. She is going to be quite disappointed if it's a boy with all this sister talk (LOL) but I know she will love whatever sibling comes her way, she is such a sweetie when it comes to babies, even when they're not ours! :)

It's amazing how well the Lord knows us personally and what we need in every situation! Today was such a special moment I will always cherish :) Chandani started, once again, talking about her baby sister and how much she loved her and I said "You'll have a baby soon enough sweetie". And Chandani, in her sweet little way, looked up at me and said "Mommy we pray her, you pray her, ok?" So we said a sweet little prayer together, in her rocking chair, that our little baby would come soon and join our family. And when it was done she wrapped her arms around my neck and said "Mommy, you rock me?" And for the first time in a LONG time my little girl let me rock her to sleep. How precious it was to look at her face and remember how she looked in that same position as a new born, a toddler and now a big girl, all grown up.

How did the Lord know my arms were aching to hold her like I once did? How did he know I needed my arms filled with that precious little spirit at that exact moment as we prayed together for more love to be added to an already overflowing family. He knew because he is my Father! And that is enough for me...