Slipping through my fingers...

What an awesome blessing to be a mother!!!
The hardest, most trying...yet most rewarding thing I've ever done in my life :)
I look at my little girl as she looks up at me and says those words...Ma Ma!
And everytime my heart just melts and I want to give her the world.
I put together an updated slideshow of her growing.
It's just to the right of this post ---------->
Hope you enjoy watching her grow as I do...

OPERATION HEALTHY MOM :)

Let me just tell you, I have felt the laziest I have EVER felt in the last few months and the scale has only reiterated that fact :( I've never been one for lots of exercise and working out, but I was a whole lot more activity when I first got married. Then life happened...

I got married and comfortable in my own skin! Unfortunately for my skin, I stretched it to the max having Chandani, weighing in at 170lbs before I gave birth. None of that seemed to matter to me until she turned 6 months and I STILL couldn't drop the weight or fit in to most of my old clothes :(

However, it's a NEW day and I haven't felt this confident in a VERY LONG TIME!!! I've started watching what I eat and instead of denying myself of all the bad, I've made a concerted effort to replace the unhealthy with other yummy much healthier options. I'm trying to work on going to bed earlier and getting up earlier...although Chandani helps me with that last one (lol) I'm even trying to exercise daily, which is a HUGE task to accomplish with a baby and housework!

I started looking at old pics and got down, thinking to myself "I'll never be that little again"...but "That's Not the Goal" I had to remind myself. It's to FEEL BETTER, wear my old clothes again and be able to look in the mirror and say..."hmmmm not too shabby!" :)

There's no magic water or answer...just good old fashion healthy eating, movmement and CONSISTENCY :)

Where Did My Baby Go...?

I look at Chandani everyday and ask myself that same question... "where did my tiny 6lb, 10oz baby go???" Why is she talking...saying ma ma, da da, duck and her own rendition of "gu gur" which is good girl! Why does she always want to stand? Why is she such a GOOD eater and eating three times a day now? Why can't she wear her 3-6 month clothes anymore and why do I get SOOOOOO sad when I have to put clothes away?

I love my sweet, sweet baby...but she's growing up and how did this happen? Will it ever get easier to watch her turn into her own person? Did I ever know how deeply and completely I could love another person...hurt when they hurt, love what they love and be over the moon when they are?

I may not be able to answer all these questions today...or ever...but as I prepare for her 9 MONTH doctor appointment tomorrow I'll try not to think of how close we are to her first birthday and try not to ask myself "Where Did My Baby Go?" :(